Have you ever been maneuvering through your day with a nice sense of ease and, dare I say it, peace swirling all around you? The challenges of the day seem easily tamed in an instant and everything is just flowing. Your to-do list is well on its way to becoming a yes, I did that! list. And you find yourself thinking, “This is actually a good day!”
Well, if your answer to that question is yes, then you know exactly what kind of day I was having a couple of days ago. Work was coming together and I was in the groove until I received a call, during which time I was presented with an opportunity to take offense.
I will spare you the details, but let’s just say that an issue was being thrown onto me that someone else really should have taken care of because they were the one who was originally involved with the situation. They were essentially passing the buck to me, so to speak. And I didn’t appreciate that.
I could tell that I was beginning to feel a certain kind of way and that I needed to cut that negativity off at the pass. God was intervening and redirecting me before I could make that leap into the deep end of offense.
I prayed and asked God to handle it, do what He wanted to be done, forgive me, rectify the situation, and help me to do whatever He was calling me to do.
Now, mind you, I wasn’t even sure that I had handled the situation wrong or done or said anything wrong, but I knew how I felt inside—the frustration and all that goes along with it—and I knew how sneaky frustration could be, popping up in places and influencing people and things without a conscious invitation.
So, rather than wait to find out if I had erred, I proceeded as though I might have and sought forgiveness and reconciliation. I spoke with that person again a short while later, and was grateful to find out that they had not taken anything in a negative way. I became aware of this after I apologized and explained the situation.
You might be saying to yourself, “But you didn’t do anything wrong. Wasn’t the other person essentially in the wrong.” And you may be right in thinking that. But no matter what other people say or do, how we conduct ourselves matters. And that “check” in my spirit said that something wasn’t right and I needed to do something about it. So, I did. Despite the jumbled up thoughts that were racing through my mind. What if this person thinks I’m crazy when I apologize out of the blue like that? What if this person thinks that I’m weak and can be easily walked over? What if this person uses their perception of the situation to get me in trouble with the powers that be? What if…what if…what if?
But I knew that those thoughts weren’t coming from God because they were birthed out of and centered in fear. And God has no part in fear.
Long story short, God fixed it. Like He always does. And looking back on the situation, especially the part that I played in it, I was grateful that this time I paid attention to and obeyed God, which led to me experiencing the outcome that He intended.
Small moments are bigger than we think, and every moment matters. May we always remember that as we represent Christ in this world. Go forward in love. Be blessed. #sanguinemango
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